“When you want to help people, you tell them the truth. When you want to help yourself, you tell them what they want to hear.”―
Parents care about their children and are afraid and don’t want to be negligent when their child has a bout of depression, self harm, reckless behavior, or suicidal ideation. They are afraid for their child’s life. They want immediate help and if a pill is going to help, they’ll do it.
What most parents don’t know is that once a person is on those drugs, they can be physically dependence forming, they don’t cure a chemical imbalance they actually create one, and withdrawal from the drug can throw the person into the same state or worse than before.
For us, we did not go to the GP for depression or suicidal ideation, we went because of E.D.- erectile dysfunction. I put aside my moral disappointment that Toby was having sex before marriage because I was shocked and thought the worst, like cancer or something. I didn’t think twice and made an appointment for Toby right away. Apparently, there are a lot of doctors out there FOR antidepressants. When Toby and I were sitting in the exam room for the first time, the general doctor said, “Let’s try Prozac.” I was shocked and asked, “Isn’t that the bad one?” The nurse and the doctor both told us there was only a black box warning because some governor’s son died by suicide so he got the label on it. It was there because of only one or maybe a few people who died. The doctor then went into a lot of talk about how millions are on them and how safe they are, pushing me into letting Toby take it. He had said, “Let’s just try it for a year.” I argued with that notion and he said, “Well, maybe just 9 months.” My biggest mistake was giving-in. After we already had the prescription I asked Toby, “Are we going to trust the doctor and trust the pill?” He said yes. I decided to put the risks out of my mind and not search about the drug on the internet because I knew I wouldn’t like what I found. I knew Toby wanted to try this and his dad told me to just listen to the doctor. So that’s what I did. I did whatever Toby wanted. I trusted the doctor. It was only 4 1/2 months on the drug before it killed him.
Dr. Aaron Wilson, a specialist in mental health and addiction, recommends changes to medication should always be made under a doctor’s supervision.
From the viewpoint of a psychiatrist, he says a cardinal rule in mental health is to avoid treating a condition that is caused by something else. –
Our son’s life was taken by the SSRI he was taking. It caused his brain to “self destruct.” His natural instinct to protect his life was deteriorated, leaving him defenseless against himself; with an inward, overcoming urge to kill himself. I suspect it was akathisia that caused his self-inflicted death.
Akathisia is a disorder, induced as a side effect of medications (including SSRI’s and antipsychotics), which can cause a person to experience such intense inner restlessness that the sufferer is driven to violence and/or suicide. It has been said, “Death can be a welcome result.” For reasons related to the strong political and lobbying power of pharmaceutical companies, akathisia is rarely explained as a possible side effect of medications, and medical professionals and the general public know very little of the existence of this disorder.
See: MISSD (The Medication-Induced Suicide Prevention and Education Foundation in Memory of Stewart Dolin) is a unique 501c3 non-profit organization dedicated to honoring the memory of Stewart and other victims of akathisia by raising awareness and educating the public about the dangers of akathisia.
-This very informative site was started by Stewart’s widow after he threw himself in front of an oncoming train. They didn’t know it then but Stewart was suffering from akathisia brought on by the SSRI he had been taking.
I echo MISSD in their defining statement: ..We feel it’s important to note that we are not anti-drug, and recognize that prescription drugs can be positive and life-saving for many individuals. We are for truth in disclosure, honesty in reporting and legitimate drug trials.
If the doctor would have told us that missing doses here and there was very dangerous (as well as abruptly stopping), after we told him he was, Toby might still be here. There were a lot of signs of suicide, looking back, but, as we found out after it was too late, an effect such as akathisia has the same signs as suicide. Ann Blake-Tracy, Executive Director of The International Coalition for Drug Awareness and author of Prozac: Panacea or Pandora? Our Serotonin Nightmare stated, “The FDA warns that any abrupt change up or down can cause suicide, hostility or psychosis. Missing doses here and there is a very dangerous way to take them because you go in and out of withdrawal but doctors do not give much warning of that.” (Our doctor did not) And because fluoride is the main ingredient in fluoxetine, it could be what causes that to happen in the brain.” “They are technically dissociative anesthetics like PCP (“angel dust”) or ketamine (known as a “date rape” drug) they are now pushing as an antidepressant. Suicide rarely exists any longer – because of antidepressant use, the victim does not CHOOSE to die and leave those they love. The antidepressants are a neurotoxin and the victim is DRIVEN to end their lives by these deadly drugs!”
Once the drug is in a person’s system, it is Russian roulette how the brain will react and if going off the pill, there will be an effect. We thought of Toby, 17, as a strong guy and he was. But, missing doses like he was, lead to his demise.
Hosea 4:6 My people are destroyed for lack of knowledge; because you have rejected knowledge,
Deaths from drug side effects happen all the time but some family members might not associate a drug side effect with the death. Grief and devastation are overwhelming and take first place when a loved one dies. Family members are stunned and in shock knowing there is nothing that can be done to bring them back.
Every year, more than 2 million Americans suffer from serious adverse drug reactions. According to the U.S. Food and Drug Administration (FDA), these reactions cause about 100,000 deaths per year, making prescription drugs the fourth-leading cause of death in the country. However, if you dig a little deeper you find that these reported reactions only skim the surface of what’s really going on. You see, drug side effects are not always recognized as such. Doctors often attribute them to other causes, people downplay them or do not report them altogether. And when you add in other medical errors, unnecessary procedures, and surgery-related mishaps, well the modern health care system actually becomes the LEADING cause of death in the United States. Consider, for instance, that: The recorded error rate of ICU’s is like the post office losing more than 16,000 pieces of mail every hour of every day, or banks deducting 32,000 checks from the wrong bank account every hour, 24/7.
The recorded medical errors and deaths equate to six jumbo jets falling out of the sky each day, 365 days a year.
Since 2001, a recorded 490,000 people have died from properly prescribed drugs in the United States.
Our doctor didn’t show any concern after Toby’s death, never offering condolences. What he did express was care for himself and his livelihood, clearing himself, by saying to the receptionist on the phone with me, “Tell her she knew the risk of the drug.”
One of the first books I read after Toby died was Gwen Olsen’s book (copyright 2005): Confessions of an Rx Drug Pusher (I read in two days- I rarely read books all the way through) I have chapter 3 marked: “Whatever is hidden will be brought out into the open and whatever is covered up, will be uncovered.” – Mark 4:22 She states: The cover-ups, misrepresentation of data, false advertising, and biased clinical research associated with the SSRI antidepressant drugs is staggering. She also states in the introduction, “Prescription drug use has become the third-largest killer of Americans, behind heart disease and cancer. Her book is dedicated to her niece, Megan, who died by suicide setting herself on fire, and ending her tortured life as a victim of the adverse effects of prescription drugs, on Dec. 2, 2004. Her website: The Rx Reformer – Gwen Olson
Her book was one of the first sources of information to open my eyes to see that multi-billion dollar pharmaceutical companies are not philanthropic in nature at all but in it for the money.
Isaiah 5:20 Woe to those who call evil good and good evil, who put darkness for light and light for darkness, who put bitter for sweet and sweet for bitter.
While Toby and I were in the doctor’s office, I asked him, “What about St. John’s Wort?” because it is an herbal remedy used for depression. The doctor laughed and said it wouldn’t have much affect, Toby wouldn’t notice any difference; that it basically wouldn’t do anything. I decided to try it myself since I had always dealt with depression. I did notice a difference and it did help me, I had no side effects, and I’m also still alive..
Recent research has found antidepressant use largely ineffective in treating depression while likely worsening long-term outcomes. Antidepressant use has also been linked to several mild and severe side effects, including emotional numbness, feeling foggy/detached, sexual dysfunction, drowsiness, and an inability to feel empathy. In addition to these common reactions to antidepressants, research has also linked antidepressant use to increased risk of death, increased suicide risk, and an increased risk of violence.
We also hear about how the official literature inflates the benefits of drug treatments and minimizes their dangers –Joanna Moncrieff, MD -Her article explains more on this topic. Check out her book here: The Bitterest Pills: The Troubling Story of Antipsychotic Drugs
I was wrong in ignoring something of such importance. With any chance of suicidal thoughts (a lot of the time a person is not going to tell you they’re suicidal), what in the world happened to me; why did I let him take it? The doctor told me millions are taking them; they’re safe. Normally I was and still am a naturalist, wholistic kind of woman. At that time I decided to give medicine a chance and I thought, “Well, we’ll see how this turns out.”.. The thought of my son actually committing suicide wasn’t real to me. I didn’t believe it would happen; that happened to other, really messed-up people. My mind just did not go there. Oh, if I could turn back time. I wanted a do-over. Of all the things to let my guard down on, my son’s life.
I wanted to file a complaint against the pharmaceutical company and even the doctor but that didn’t happen. I would have went through with it but Tim did not want to take this case to court and possibly make money off of Toby’s death. I didn’t want that either. Now, I have a God-given urgency to sound the alarm about the dangers of these particular types of drugs- that break the blood-barrier of the brain, are neurotoxins, carry the strictest warning a drug can carry- the black box warning, and the heightened risk of serious effects during withdrawal.
It has been almost six years now, since Toby left this earth. I knew from the moment Tim text me that Toby left his six year old sister at home, that those pills were affecting him. Even while searching for Toby that night, I already knew- before I was told, that he was gone. When I was hit with the fact that Toby had died, that pain engulfed me beyond my whole being.
There are not enough words that can sufficiently describe how much it hurts to think of your beloved child suffering in a condition that could have been avoided. It angers me that pharma has not banned this class of drugs knowing all the deaths they have caused. And, I was mad at myself for, really, being a negligent parent for not rejecting this drug and seeking alternatives.
Revelations 18:23-24 ..for your merchants were the great ones (rich) of the earth, and all nations were deceived by your sorcery (pharmakeia). And in her was found the blood of prophets and of saints, and of all who have been slain on earth.”
All I have left is trust in God, to try and help someone else out there by “sounding the alarm,” and give honor to my son’s life by raising awareness of the dangers of these drugs. I feel it my duty to do unto others as I would have them do unto me and warn people with the truth. As much as I have said here, I don’t know what else to add except that this is not even all of it concerning the medical visits. I cannot describe to you what kind of torture it is to learn of all the real dangers after it’s too late. Because I did want to go back in time and save Toby but I have to trust God for the saving. I do believe God has given me this desire to write and speak out in truth and in love. So, I am happy to do it because in my heart I believe it is a gift God has given me.