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Dr. Peter Breggin’s new concept of medication spellbinding provides insights into why so many people take psychiatric drugs when the drugs are doing more harm than good. Psychiatric drugs, and all other drugs that affect the mind, spellbind the individual by masking their adverse mental effects from the individual taking the drugs. If the person experiences a mental side effect, such as anger or sadness, he or she is likely to attribute it to something other than drug, perhaps blaming it on a loved one or on their own “mental illness.” Often people taking psychiatric drugs claim to feel better than ever when in reality their mental life and behavior is impaired. In the extreme, medication spellbinding leads otherwise well-functioning and ethical individuals to commit criminal acts, violence or suicide.

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Why are so many young people ending their own lives? It seems conventional methods to combat depression aren’t helping. The numbers of suicide deaths have been rising over the years and they continue to rise. 

What is happening? Why aren't the numbers of suicide deaths going down, with all the antidepressants people are using?

Suicide happens within the church body. It did with us. We are an average family, living on a farm in Northeast Missouri, the Heartland.



Subconsciously Assuming Things About Your Teen

April 22, 2022

Assuming your teen will react to common situations the same way you did when you were growing up I would fish through my seventeen year old son’s truck when he didn’t know it and look for any evidence of party paraphernalia. I did find a couple beer cans in the bed of his truck- of…

Side effect: Suicide

February 11, 2022

“When you want to help people, you tell them the truth. When you want to help yourself, you tell them what they want to hear.”― Thomas Sowell Parents care about their children and are afraid and don’t want to be negligent when their child has a bout of depression, self harm, reckless behavior, or suicidal ideation.…

Men cry too

January 27, 2022

Wow, my husband. He really surprised me this morning. He just passed his 56th birthday; we’re well into middle age. I told him I said something to Taylor this morning about the cold and it made me think of the song, “Cold As Ice” by Foreigner. She didn’t know anything about it, I mean it…

How will you share your story?

January 19, 2022

You have a story. We all have a story. This is my story. Big Daddy Weave, We Are Messengers, and me. Oct. 29, 2017, Sunday evening. I went by myself.. doing grief alone, a lot. I had even made a post on social media asking if someone would want to go with me. One friend…

School Lunches Suck

January 6, 2022

By Toby Gottman Can we take a moment to smile? Maybe even laugh? This was a persuasive essay written by Toby, dated Dec. 15, 2015. So, Toby was seventeen at that time. Although proper nutrition is very important to overall health and therefore to mental health, I’m only sharing this article to show Toby’s personality.…

High profile Dr. comments on “What are the chances of surviving 10 drug overdoses?”

January 2, 2022

I shared my post with a private social media pharma drug awareness group. I asked for constructive feedback. This is what the administrator of the group wrote. You want feedback? You need to get to the core of all those issues & out of all the psychobabble. The family’s core issue is hypoglycemia. This is…

What are the chances of surviving ten drug overdoses? An interview with my niece.

December 17, 2021

My niece, Kayla*, was born to a single mom, my only sister, Nicole*. That was in 1996. Kayla was around eight months old when I took care of her for a week, while my sister went to the Bahamas with a man and a girlfriend of hers. Our mom took her for the second week.…

When someone dies by suicide, was that the day God intended for them to die?

November 4, 2021

Were there more things for my child to accomplish in his life that were supposed to happen? “You saw me before I was born. Every day of my life was recorded in your book. Every moment was laid out before a single day had passed.” Psalm 139:16 God is all-knowing, He knows when we will…

I’m so depressed

June 8, 2021

“I’m so angry” “I’m so hurt” I believe that you being here, reading this, is one way God is communicating with you. I believe it’s your sign from God that he sees you. He sees you struggling and he cares about you. You are here for a reason. God wants you to choose life. “I’m…

I’m thinking about killing myself

June 8, 2021

STOP that thought! Shut the door of your mind on that thought! Lock that door and throw away the key! Let’s talk about this. Any thought of death and killing is from the devil! God would never ask or tell you to kill yourself. Our thoughts have life or death in them. First of all,…